Path of the Adept

 Wisdom In Action

Wisdom in action is the path of the peaceful warrior. The warrior who seeks knowledge of self, and the mastery of his own mind, rather than dominance over another through force.





 Peace Within

Peace within is what we seek. For peace without is fleeting and unsure.





 Singleness Of Sight

The light of the body is the eye. Therefore when your eye is single, your whole body will be full of light.





 Love Of Self

True love of self is loving yourself as a beautiful and blessed part of creation and not a vain glorious activity.





 Charity To All

Charity to all is a surrendering of the beliefs that we are better than one another, or that we are separate from one another. Recognizing and accepting our responsibilities to our brothers and sisters





 Perfect Acceptance

Perfect Acceptance is the child of the first five. For when they are combined we become the adept. We gain infinite strength to change that which must be changed. Sitting calmly meditating as the storm rages around us because we accept the things we cannot change.

And finally The Light that gives life to all other lights gives us true wisdom. And with true wisdom as our companion and guide we will know the truth of what can and cannot be changed. We will know the truth of what can and cannot be healed.

And with willingness, eagerness, and desire we walk the path to which we have been called. Amen.

It Is Time America

What do you know about suffering and pain
Lived your whole life in fortune and fame
Never had to fetch the scraps from under tables
Havent you ever noticed the rich dont wear labels

We struggle and fight just to be seen by a doc
The insurance company just put us on the block
The blade is sharp ready to swing at any moment
Our necks are bare as we wait for the blade to stroke it

Health care in America is a joke to the world
The richest nation ever but we cant save little girls
Little boys are just as bad they send them home to die
If you cant afford the meds the pharmacy dont even try

The politicians say no this would be a bad thing
Health care for everyone has a social ring
The rich shall live and the poor shall die
If it aint broke dont fix it the good old boy lie

They pretend that they care with their speaches on TV
Talking about no money in the budget for you and me
But they get the best of care come rain or shine
While the rest of America is hopelessly dying

Can we get some truth in office a politician who cares
About the common men and women who built this country fair
From the ground we built it and only asked for a piece
Of the American dream just a piece of the feast

A little land to call home without a bank on our backs
A reliable car so to our job we can make tracks
Some insurance for our babies so they can live long
Some money for school so our kids can read and sing songs

But most of all we just want to be treated equal
Of the past 200 years we dont want to see a sequal
So many have died and given limbs for us to be free
Yet the rich make moot their sacrifices constantly

We are patriots and we love the land we me made great
From coast to coast from the 1700's till to date
People from all over the world have made this their home
Have worked the very land and tilled this black loam

Stop the greed at it's source there's enough wealth for all
Or one day we'll quit and this great land will fall
There will be no factories, no farms, and no plants
No one to serve them when the rich want to dance

The Bible says a worker is worth being paid his or her wage
Our workers have dignity but we put them in a cage
The time has come for love to be revealed
And all of our old wounds to be forgotten and healed

Yo you did that kid wrong G
You gets no love with dirty green
Tried to tell you before mad scene
That God He see everything

You gonna pay for that matter of fact of force
When your hens come home to roost dont get hoarse
There'll be plenty of time for remorse of course
The circle of life always leads back to the source

I tried to tell you right dont deny
I tried to set you right there was no reply
Return to sender love dont live here no more
We aint family we aint friends now I know the score

We grew up together potential for more was there
Yet you be loving these streets and it aint fair
When the judgement arrives and you wanna lie dont dare
Accept responsibility for your life for your share

The chance to repent was there but you chose lies
No matter how hard you cross your t's or dot your i's
The truth will always reveal so check for size
You thought it was buried but the truth has 9 lives

Family

Hello and good morning to all my dear and close friends and family who take the time out of their busy days and schedules to read my little blogs.
This one is entitled family simply family is like love. It's one of those words that has so many meanings to so many people. And unlike the dictionary it is not just some random occurence of genes and sequences that make us family.
There are people in my life like Sammy, Alex, Jennifer, Janice, Mike, Misty, Kellie, Adrian, Erik, Louise, etc. and the list could go on and on. None of the afore mentioned people do I share any DNA with but at one point and time they were and some still are my family.
Yes I know that some of you don't even speak to me any more, for whatever reason. Some we lost touch, others there was some type of nuclear meltdown and now we are on opposite sides of an ever widening chasm.
And some just plain want nothing to do with me any more. Again personal reasons accepted.
But this Thanksgiving I was contacted by someone who I thought was lost to me forever. How strange when things you thought were important turn out to be nothing more than petty grudges that we hold on to for the sake of maintaining some type of emotion where that person is concerned.
Me and my sister Donna have not always gotten along. For one thing we're both capricorns. So our personalities sometimes conflict because we're so much alike. But family issues, and a move or two, and various other events left me feeling that I wasn't loved by sister anymore.
No she never said those words, in fact after the family meltdown I never got to talk to her again but this is where that grudge thing I was talking about comes in.
I never did anything to my sister to warrant her cutting me out of her life so because I'm hurt I'm going to manufacture a reason to be angry with her.
Yet even after ten years of nursing this grudge, the minute I got contact from her it was as if I had never even been mad at her. And I guess the truth of the matter is that I wasnt mad, I was hurt. But you know humans. We dont like to be vulnerable and nothing seems to make us vulnerable quite like family.
Family has a way of hitting you below the belt. Kidney blows and head butts. Thumb jabs and eye gouges. Oh I dont mean literally but it may as well be because the pain is every bit as real as if they had done those things to you.
When my sister finally contacted me I felt all of that old anger. The grudge creeping up inside of me expecting to vented at any moment.
Nothing I can say would prepare you the conversations that ensued.
From the moment we started emailing back and forth it was like all was well in my world. Yup that's right no fighting, no venting, no rehasing old hurts or wrongs. I didnt even get into how her silence had hurt me.
No instead I dropped everything I was doing and loved her. This little journey that I've been on has changed me more than even I thought possible.
Not only was every perceived hurt forgotten but every real hurt was gone. As if they had never been there.
Who am I? What happened to that guy who would wait for just the most exquisite moment to shove the knife of revenge deep into the ribs of those who would hurt me?
I guess he grew up. Because when I heard from my big sister it was like no time had passed between us. It was like we had never been apart at all. Of course there are all of the getting up to speed emails; (how are the kids, how's the hubby, hows your health?)
But we connected as if we had never been disconnected.
I have learned a very important lesson about family. And about myself and my ability to forgive. There are no limits.
That's right, if we allow our selves to let the hurt dissipate, if we allow ourselves to see and remember the good instead of the bad. If we truly desire a world that we are proud to hand over to our children and our childrens children, then the hating and the fighting must stop somewhere.
Why not here? Why not now? Why not taking stock of your life and everyone in it. Why not every one out of it. Why not take the hurt, the pain, the suffering, the anger, the malice, the revenge, and the grudges towards every one whom you have ever had any sort of contact with what so ever and give it up.
That's right just give it up. Allow for the possibilities of what could be. When I realized what I was touching on I felt energized. This is real power. Not the kind of power the governments of the world think they have. Not the kind of power politicians the world over think they have. I mean the power that's infinite enough in it's ability to change our world.
The power to forgive and love our family. And if you havent realized by now that we're all family then nothing I've said has made any impact on you at all.
But that one person. That one seed that has been planted, or that one seed that has been nurtured, or that one seed that has been watered, or that one seed that has received the blessing of sunshine that it needed to grow has been touched.
Someone, some where is reading this blog and realizing that the Tree of Life is us. All of us. You and me. My family and your family. My state and your state. My country and your country. My continent and your continent. We are all family. All of our lives are tied together by the Tree of Life which has given us all life.
I realized that when I forgave my sister I was actually forgiving myself. I was taught as a child that love hides many a fault and as an adult I say that love hides all faults.
Through being allowed to have contact with my sister again my eyes have been opened to what was right in front of them the whole time.
You are all my sisters. You are all my brothers. From this same soil we all sprung into existence. We know life, and love, and pain, and suffering, and hatred, hurt because we are all tied into each other. We are family. The more I understand this and feel it in my heart the more I start seeing other members of our family. Member who until now I could not see. Member of our family who work behind the veil helping us, loving us, nurturing us. Planting seeds, nurturing seeds, watering seeds, and providing sunshine to those seeds. Behind the seens without us even knowing they were there. FAMILY.
As you read this and begin for the first time to awaken. Or as you read this and for for the first time accept. Or as you read this and for the first time see. We are just one small corner, of one small piece, of one small galaxy, of one small universe, within a multitude of universes of brothers and sisters who are all where we are at. Trying to see beyond the veil. Trying to see what lies beyond what we have allowed ourselves to believe of as true.
Our family is without number in it's infinity and in it's continuosity to grow and expand. Our family commands the stars, our family travels beyond the worlds we know of, our family shares in the light that encompasses and creates all other lights. We are the light.
So while I share my feelings of compassion and thanksgiving for the reconnection of the relationship between me and my biological sibling, the others have taken this opportunity to tell you that you are not alone either. They are there waiting for you to open your heart to them. To see that they are there waiting for you to connect with them. Waiting to open your eyes and share with you the wonders of the light that pierces into infinity. Waiting to share with you the light that has created and knows ever single light in every single part of It's creation. We are a family of light connected families of light, connected to other families of light, connected to other families of light reaching from here to where the light begins. At it's source. So I give thanksgiving for all of my family who have watched over me and shined light on me, and helped me grow. I can't see you yet but I feel you all around me, loving me, nurturing me, trying to help me remember that I am light because I came from light. And teaching me to love my family all because they too came from the light and need help remembering that they are light.
I love you, may you see the light for what it is and begin to know your family. Your brother, in light, Ollis.

Thanksgiving

For over ten years I've been in the dark. Wondering what happened to my sister, to my niece and nephew, and my brother in law. I've hired detectives, I've done internet searches, I've even tried pretend to be her and called up utility companies in Las Vegas trying to find them.
But God has his ways and his ways are not our ways.
Still I a have to say this is the best Thanksgiving EVER. My sister hit me up on myspace. I was thinking of taking it down now that I'm using GMAIL, but what providence and what grace I have been shown.
I give all the glory to my Father who created a universe in which all things work for those who love him.
There are still to many uncontrolled whirling dervish like emotions inside of me to make a clear statement here, but as time goes by I'm sure there will be more read. I have so much to thank her for. She truly helped to raise me and my younger brothers, her husband taught me how to play bass and gave an insatiable love of all things funk. Leave us not forget my niece and nephew who were like little satellites orbitting all the time. How I took their love and presence for granted. Never again because life is to precious. So many times in the interim I almost lost my life and I would have never gotten to tell them that I love them just one more time. But God has opened the gates of heaven and poured out his essence on us. Never take your family for granted. That they will always be there, that they will always be able to comfort you, that you'll always be able to pick up a phone and hear their voices.
This is what I am thankful for this year. May you all know the love of family, may the peace that surpasses all understanding be your constant companion, and never ever forget, "THE FUNK IS IT'S OWN REWARD".

Dialysis

As a dialysis patient for over three years I've seen a lot of things. As human beings we like discount the experiences of people because they either don't have the length of experience that others do, or their experiences are discounted because they don't fit the norm.
So let me say right off the bat that my experiences as a dialysis patient are not the norm. Let me say that I don't have all the answers about how to deal with dialysis. And let me be clear on the fact that my experiences as a patient, are just that. MY EXPERIENCES.
Very few of us talk about or write about what we go through. I'm sure some PH'D could give us a lengthy and detailed analysis as to why that is.
But I've realized that talking about it help others deal with it. Talking about it helps family members who have no fricking clue as to what their dialysis patient is going through. But most of all it helps me to feel like I'm doing something for us. For the patients.
Going through dialysis is like a job. A job that beats the crap out of you, leaves you exhausted mentally and physically, and doesnt give you a choice about whether or not you want to keep doing it.
Well that's not exactly true, there are always choices. Dialysis or die. Not much of a choice but it is a choice. And for all you family members, church members, well meaning nurses, counselors, and concerned citizens, "Shut the hell up".
When I was young my dad used to tell me all the time, "Son, never judge a person till you done walked a mile in they shoes".
So for all of you people who care about us, love us, pray for us, try to help us, you need to know this. Until you live with the specter of death looming over you. Until you live with having someone watching over what you eat, what you drink, and whether or not you're taking your medications. Until you have dealt with being stuck with 16 gauge needles a minimum of three times a week, some times more. Until you know what it feels like to know you no longer have freedom unless there's a dialysis machine where ever youre thinking about going. I'm not even going to get started on the pain that the needles cause that's damned obvious. But what about the pain of knowing that this is your future? What about the pain of knowing that you live on borrowed time? What about the pain of knowing that every one who knows you is waiting for the other shoe to drop so they can start fighting over what few items in this world that you did own? What about the pain of knowing that there are hundreds and hundreds of preventitive methods for keeping kidneys healthy and working but that insurance companies squash them because they make more money off you as a dialysis patient? What about the pain of having to fight and fight and fight with doctors, insurance agents, hospitals, dialysis clinics, just to get treated like a human being instead of a number?
So the next time you tell some one who has an illness that you understand what they are going through, do yourself a favor and bite your tongue. It means more to us that you just be there for us than trying to lift our spirits with empty platitudes and common statements of concern.

JUST A LITTLE TALK WITH THEE

Once upon a time there was a man who would be king
To receive untold wealth only required one thing
Death for all was the price he had to pay
And he asked the Father if there was another way
The Father loved the Son and the Son loved us
The most beautiful story ever told of love and trust
All that you see is the greatest lie ever told
But if you come with me you'll be part of my fold
I will take you to a place where you'll never ever cry
And every one you love will never ever die
The streets will be gold and mansions abound
And eternal praise will be the most wonderful sound
The world is hungry it wants to eat you whole
It wants your attention so it can devour your soul
It's full of lies and deceit it's every gift is a curse
You must do horrible things if you want to be first

Awe this is too much I'm just trying to make a buck
I've got bills to pay and the lottery takes luck
I tell you what when you can put food on my table
And remove all my worries then I'll be able
To give you time to hear about this king unknown
Because it's obvious he failed or he'd be on the throne
With the world at his feet and every tongue giving praise
Instead of pushing up daisies for the rest of his days

It's prophetic you should say that for surely I did die
But unlike you all I am God inside
Tried me , spit on me, beat me worst than most
Then they hung me from a tree till I gave up the ghost
I was covered in swaddling and laid in a tomb
But this my friend is not a story of doom
For three days later I arose from the grave
For the sins of all men my life I freely gave
For when sin entered the world so did death
But to all who believe I give eternal breath
The gates of hell have been smashed forever
The price mentioned earlier is to be a believer
For the price is belief in Christ as the son of THE FATHER
You will never taste of death or of thirst or of hunger

I thought of your offer and I'm afraid I need proof
Some sort of contract my mother raised no fools
If you can give that to me I will believe all my days
And even go to church and change all my ways

I wish I could help you with your struggle of faith
But the contract you seek has already been made
You see when I died and shed my own blood
All those who believe are covered by my love

Then how can I a man long of this world
Ever trust this blood this so called pearl
I build with my hands and it's there for all to see
But this faith you talk of is invisible to me
What can I look to as proof that you’re real
Give to me a parchment and I will seal this deal

You need no PDA, no email, no paper, no contract
For my Father has created all men with a pact
You know in your heart that my shed blood saves
But The Father will never force upon you his love or his ways
If you choose the path of seeking signs from outside
You will miss the voice continually calling from inside
If you truly desire to find me in your life
Be silent my son and let go of your strife
For in the moment that your voice goes silent
The veil between you and Me is forever rent

Helpful Lists

Time is getting short brothers and sisters. This is not a message of fear or intimidation. This is a true cold hard realization that time is moving faster and faster. Ever look back at your childhood and wonder where it all went? Ever look back at college and wonder where those years went? How is it possible that our experience of time is getting faster and faster and instead of leveling out or slowing down?
I even went so far as to ask my dad, (who was a theologian) why is it that time seems to keep going faster. Even he had no answer for me.
I’ve questioned pastors, priests, friends, and elders about this strange phenomenon and no one seems to be able to answer this question.
It wasn’t until I found Urantia / The Book of Knowledge:The Keys of Enoch / The Jerusalem Bible / and the 72 Living Names of The Most High / Alpha, Theta, Delta, and Beta mind state classes offered by “Dr. June d’Estelle”, “Dr. S. Louise Burgan”, and “Dr. Gale Gray”.
There are several groups that have offered information in regards to time and its eventual courses.
This is not by any means a complete list and if you would be so kind as to keep me updated on myspace or google blogger I will continue to update this list. In the mean time may this help you in your search, God bless. Rev. Ollis.
www.junedestelle.com Dr. d’Estelle’s Alpha, Theta, Delta classes being offered year round.
www.2012nbeyond.com Dr. Gale Grays Delta, Mayan, and Vortex classes being offered year round.
www.thefamilyoflight.net Training in shamanic practices and herbalism. Class schedules and pricing unknown.
www.umsonline.org Metaphysical colleges and schools of enlightenment. This site will refer you to other schools who may be teaching what you want to learn.
www.westga.edu The writings and deliverings of Mike Arons. I found his work quite insightful and should help any on at any level grow.
www.wright-house.com The analects of Confucius. Nothing more need be said. Lao has been speaking to us for over a thousand years.
www.chinesemoods.com Chinese clothing, articles, and home décor. For those trying to bring more “feng shui” into their homes or looking to dress more in line with eastern fashions, then this is the site for you.
www.mysticunicorn.com Fairies, dragons, candles, oils, herbs, etc. This site has many offerings. Too many to go into here. So drop by and see if they have something that appeals to you.
www.20000-names.com Dragon names and their origins and meanings. I am a dragon freak. I’ve got dragons all over my home and a tattoo of a dragon on my arm. If you want to know more about these incredibly ancient and wise beings this is a good place to start.
www.emofree.com World center for emotional freedom techniques. This site was created by Gary Craig who realized that patients who addressed their childhood and early adulthood traumas lived much richer and fuller lives. If emotions are what’s holding you back then this is a good place to start.
www.yournewageshop.com Candles, oils, fairies, dragons, wands, etc. This site has a variety of items and is not limited to any one field or specialty. So my advice is to peruse the pages and let your intuition lead you.
www.psychicenterprises.com Cheryl Anne has been working and bringing her special touch of intuition and unconditional love to her readings. If you have never had a reading I recommend her as a good starting place. I you are more advanced then I would recommend people more like;
Frank Bozza (seer extraordinaire) 530-346-8683 HOME 530-320-0402 Tell him that Ollis and May sent you. Always call for an appointment as he does not do home visits.
www.rmminst.com The Rocky Mountain Mystery School International teaches a very monastic modality. Commitment is a requirements for this type of training, so the serious need not apply.
www.futurescience.org This and several other works by Dr.’s JJ and Desiree Hurtak have advanced what we know about ancient structures, sound, harmony, and spirituality. He has written several books such as “The Book of Knowledge:The Keys of Enoch, The 72 Divine Names of the Most High, and several others. His website is a plethora of knowledge that will aid you on your journey to finding who you are and why you are here.
www.ulc.net This is where I became ordained as minister and got my doctorate in religion. These people are always looking to help our as long as your creed is not one of hate or death.
This list is by no means exhaustive so please send me sites and phone numbers of people who work in these fields.

Christians :(

I had the most unpleasant conversation at a friends Halloween party with a group of Christians. It saddened me so to hear the rank and ignorant statements made by this group. Mind you I’m no dogmatic Christian but there are things that I hold dear. Never the less having this conversation was a God send because it reminded me to be humble when dealing with people who are not believers. Here is the meat of what I’m talking about. Most Christians have this “better than thou” attitude when they deal with the non-saved. Or they come off as arrogant like they know something that you don’t. So let me shed a little light on this problem. Christian brothers and sisters please stop acting like you are the only one who can show people the way to God. Please stop treating your un-saved brothers and sisters like they’re not going to heaven because they don’t hold your belief systems or worship in your church. Please stop behaving as if your righteousness is a thing to behold in all the earth.
Please do remember that we did not choose to come to God, God chose to call us to him.

And he remarked, “That is what I meant when I said that no one can come to me unless the Father attracts him to me.” John 6:65 Living Bible.

And he said, Therefore said I unto you, that no man can come unto me, except it were given unto him of my Father. John 6:65 King James
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When Jesus came to Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, “Who are the people saying I am?” “Well,” they replied, “some say John the Baptist; some, Elijah; some, Jeremiah or one of the other prophets.”
Then he asked them, “Who do you think I am?” Simon Peter answered, “The Christ, the Messiah, the Son of the living God.”
“God has blessed you, Simon, son of Jonah,” Jesus said, “for my Father in heaven has personally revealed this to you – this is not from any human source. Matthew 16:13-17 Living Bible

When Jesus came into the coasts of Caesarea Philippi, he asked his disciples, saying, Whom do men say that I the Son of man am? And they said, Some say that thou art John the Baptist: some, Elias; and others, Jeremias, or one of the prophets.
He saith unto them, But whom say ye that I am? And Simon Peter answered and said, Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God. And Jesus answered and said unto him, Blessed art thou, Simon Bar-jona: for flesh and blood hath not revealed it unto thee, but my Father which is in heaven. Matthew 16:13-17 King James

So dear ones in your quest to educate and proselytize do not forget that God has a time and a season for all things. When people do not accept the Word of God do not bludgeon them with the bible or with your eagerness to show them what they’re missing. For none of us have come to God of our own accord. We came because we were called.
And remember that we are supposed to be the “salt of the earth,” and the “light of the world.” When we live as we are supposed to live then that light within us calls to them and we need not speak a word.

Jesus said to them, “You are truly my disciples if you live as I tell you to, and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” John 8:31&32 Living Bible

The true shepherd does only what he has seen the Father do. This is how we know that Christ is the shepherd in the parable. The sheep know the shepherds’ voice and obey it. This is how people know the true sheep. If we claim to be of God but act like devils then all of our high talk is as fleeting as trying to catch the wind. Children of God should behave as they have been taught that they should behave. With humility, chastity, love, concern, caring, empathy, sharing, joy, and the peace that surpasses understanding.

I was talking to a friend today about some of my journeys in this world. He was most interested in hearing about some of the different religions I have participated in. Most particularly he was interested in Buddhism. No one man can ever know all there is to know about any religion, religious observances, or path to enlightenment. So I told him what little I know. He seemed surprised that so much of what I told him paralleled Christianity. I told him that was why I continue to this day my education in the Buddhist way, because so much of Buddhism does parallel Christianity.
I told him that the reasons I came to these conclusions are from several scriptures. Also some of the similarities are because Christianity in its truest form is at heart an eastern religion. Most Christian holidays, religious observances, and practices are derived from Jewish and pagan holidays, ceremonies, and rituals.
In fact it is quite common for a newer up and coming religion to absorb ceremonies and holidays from older more established religions.
Yet even beyond these accepted reasons there are still some amazing parallels in the approach to eternal life. Christianity bases acceptance into eternity around the belief in Jesus Christ as the Son of God. While Buddhism doesn’t center ascendance into eternity around a figure of deity, the parallel becomes apparent in that there are several factors that can cause pain and suffering. When individuals can strip themselves through meditation of the desires for the things of this world then those individuals can ascend and leave the repetitive cycle of reincarnation behind.
In Christianity this is part of the core teachings. The love of the world and the things of the world will separate you from the love of God and the love of others. What I find refreshing is that the decision is always left with the individual. If you choose to love God and your brothers and sisters then your path is one of enlightenment. But if you choose to follow the world…… enough said.
So whatever path you have chosen, may it lead you to where ever it is that you want to be. Peace.

Faith

Faith. Such a simple word. So easy to say. It requires no fore thought to pronounce it properly. Yet there is a shadowy quality to it. A component of it that refuses to be contained, explained, defined, or categorized. The Bible teaches us that faith is the "substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen".
Here on this earth, in darkness. With no evidence to qualify our beliefs. Yet unseen we believe. We have faith. And faith covers many a doubt. No I do not say that faith quenches all doubt, for it does not. But I do say that faith is like a soothing salve placed on our wounds. The skin in its own time in its own way will repair the damage. But the salve helps us in the now to deal with the pain and suffering.
And truly we are ignorant. We know nothing of the cosmos. We have no knowledge of the peoples of the worlds between us and infinity. We have no knowledge of the peoples who have lived, loved. learned, and ascended to heights that still await us.
I live for the day when we will awaken. When we will awaken to the truth of who we are. As I live I see so many of my brothers and sisters walking around in a daze. Waiting for they know not what. Other brothers and sisters who just can't take it any more and take their own lives. Yet still other brothers and sisters who could care less about tomorrow and focus their energy into today and the concerns of today.
I'm not saying that we should become air heads and place all of our faculties into wait mode to see what will come. I'm saying that what we see today is a veil. It's like a movie screen onto which is projected a film that is so far from reality that we wouldn't know reality if it bit us in the butt.
But I say to you that there is hope. This faith that I mentioned earlier is here now. Waiting for you to recognize it and accept it with open arms. Faith will take you from a place of wondering and fear and remove you to a place of comfort and belonging.
Know this my brothers and sisters. You are who you are for a reason. Even if you don't know that reason you can rest assured that the reason is a good one. I know the self speak that goes on in your head because it's the same self speak that goes on in my head. All of the doubts and fears and lies that accompany being human I have experienced too. But try to look at life like this. If there is no God and everything that happens happens by chance, then we are statistical anomalies. We shouldn't be here. But the universe in its wisdom decided that we were necessary for the properly ordered running of this reality.
And if there is a God then He in His infinite wisdom put you here for a reason. There is a plan in motion that we cannot begin to fathom of which we are all a part. There is a mission in this life that only you can accomplish, which is why you were given all of the skills, talents, and the peculiar personality that you have. There are no mistakes.
This myriad of intricately, interlapping, interwoven lives we live is no mistake. We were born to the parents we were born to for a reason. We have the abilities we have for a reason. We are the people we are for a reason.
And if we can get to a place where faith can begin to intercede for us in the place of our doubts then touching that reason is now a possibility.
I need you to understand that I'm not talking about faith in God here. I'm talking about us having faith in us. I'm talking about us having faith that we are special. We are gifts to this world. NO ONE, NO WHERE, NO WHEN, can do what we can do because that thing thing was not made for us to do. We were made to do that thing.
Have faith in yourself, love yourself, respect your individuality because it is that uniqueness that gives you purpose.
With all of the love, patience, and desire in my heart I bless you. I bless you now with the blessings of grace because grace is sufficient.

Dreams

I know a lot of people say that dreams are just dreams, that they don't mean anything. And then I've heard others say that dreams are very important to us and our lives.I don't know which one of these positions is closest to the truth but I know this, we are all experts at dreaming. I don't care how old you are or how young you are, we all dream. Yes all of us, even those of us who either can't remember them or intentionally block them out upon waking.But I have a theory of my own to posit. I have had dreams throughout my life that were not dream like. I know you're wondering what the heck I'm talking about. What I mean is that when I have dreams, normal dreams. I don't really feel anything. Sometimes they're fun, sometimes they're scary, and sometimes their down right silly or science fiction like. But every now and again I have a dream that defies conventional wisdom concerning dreams. Dreams that are too real to be dreams. You say how can a dream be too real to be a dream? This is how. Some times I dream and I can't get out of it. Yes I can't awaken myself. I've developed this trick I do in the dream. I bite my hand in the dream and presto I wake up. I learned how to do this because some of my dreams make horror movies look like a trip to Disney land. Nuff said about that. But this little trick I do always works on dreams. It doesn't work at all when I....... well I don't even know what to call them. It's too real, it's like I went to sleep, left my body, travelled to another dimension. In this dimension are other versions of our selves. Most certainly different. Sometimes I look different. Sometimes my surroundings are familiar, like my family home that I grew up in, in Hinkley, but slightly different here and there. The living room doors are in the wrong place. The kitchen isn't where I remember it. My bedroom is larger or smaller than it is here. Sometimes I'm white, sometimes I'm asian, sometimes I'm samoan. Sometimes I work for the government, (don't ask I'd have to kill you if I told you). Blah blah blah government security and all that rubbish. lolSometimes I'm in a space ship travelling the stars on good will missions. Sometimes I don't make contact; I just look in on a developing species. I know what you're thinking. Damn Ollis you need to stop watching that damned sci-fi crap; it's rotting your brain. And you know what? I think I'd agree with you if it wasn't for one thing that I just can't ignore. No matter where I'm at or what I'm doing in these too real dreams, the person in the center of the dreams is always me. I don't just mean he/she looks like me. (Yes I've on occasion been a woman too). I mean it is me. Not the me that I know who lives on planet earth in the third dimension, I mean ME. The mind, the heart, the soul, whatever you want to call it. It's always me. Just other versions of me.It is my belief that when I have these dreams that seem like they're too real it's because they are real. I'm not dreaming in the conventional sense. I'm living one of my other lives. Our scientists now know that there are an infinite number of universes with an infinite number of fractal timelines all skewing out in different directions. Think of it this way, in your life from your very birth your parents made decisions for you until such time as you could make them for yourself. Think of every decision your parents made. Do we raise our child in CA? Do we go elsewhere to look for better jobs? What about the community we raise our child in? What about family? What members of the family do we let have contact with our child? All of these decisions have very real consequences and effects on who you are. At every intersection where a choice must be made, either by your parents or by you, a universe is spawned where the path not taken here is taken in the other universe. We are who we are because of who our parents are, because of our life experiences, because of where we live, and people we've known. What if, and I'm taking a giant leap of faith here, what if we along with all of these infinite numbers of ourselves are all connected? What if we only think we are dreaming, but in actuality we are looking in on our lives in another dimension. Another universe. Another of our lives. We know it's us because no matter how different we may be, our core is the same.Science tells us that time travel is not possible because same matter cannot share the same time space. What if they are wrong? And since no one we know has ever managed to travel backwards or forwards in time what makes them the authority on time and how it works and exists?What if we are not just travelling to parallel universes or mirror dimensions? What if we are also traversing time and space? Ever notice that in some of these "dreams" you are your younger self? Ever notice that in some of these "dreams" you're much older than you are now? Ever notice that in some of your "dreams" you are doing things, participating in events, and handling objects that do not exist YET? Or existed in the past.Mind you for terminologies sake that I am not talking about remote viewing. Which is the psychic viewing of subjects, places, or things. This is not a per se psychic event. (Though for the sake of argument we may be utilizing these abilities to link to our other selves). You don't have to be psychic to touch yourself. These other you's like I said, no matter how different are still you. Just you in another time and another place.Like I said it's just a theory and at present there exists no means for me to prove this theory. But wouldn't it be interesting to be able to talk to you your other selves and ask if they've ever "dreamed" about you?Till my next crazy thought passes through my head good luck and God bless you all. Ollis.

Black Man

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Brotherhood

Hello and welcome to this my first post and hopefully the first of many. I have several friends who have already taken the plunge into blogging. They have been trying for years to get me to come on over so I finally did. It took me while to decide what exactly my first blog should be about. Thus brotherhood. I thought that this was the perfect concept to unveil who I am and what I stand for. I was raised Christian. My father was a baptist pastor and my mother his friend and the steward of his church. All of this to say my early life was an experience in confusion and strictness. Church life for the most part was fun and good as long as I was a child, but the minute I crossed the line into age of understanding and reason all fun ceased.
The life of show and go, the production of big hats and back stabbing, the list of giant egos and two faced acquaintances sitting in the front rows. Yes this is a horrible way to exemplify the church but this is just my own personal observations of the some of the churches that I have personally attended. This is not a systematic destruction of every church every where, that would be.......well, unenlightened. This is just for background information. To give you an overview of why I feel the the way I feel. So many of the people you will run into in the church will judge you based on a number of factors. Do you go to church? Do you have a home church? What are your particular beliefs as it relates to religion? These questions are asked with an eye toward determining whether or not you have the potential to fit in with the status quo. This is the decision that I had to make once I reached the age of discernment. Do I want to fit in? Do I want to mold myself in the image of the older men of the church? Am I down with the plan?
I now live for all. What does this mean? It means, no. I'm not down with the plan. I refuse to be herded like so much sheep to the slaughter. I will not lie in the embrace of ignorance. I will not suffer the idiocy of fools. And I will not be molded by another, I will take responsibility for myself and do my own molding. If perchance I make mistakes and how could I not make them, I am after all human. But if I make mistakes let them be my mistakes. In this way I will have lived, experienced, this life for myself and not just mimicked the life pattern of another.
This brotherhood that I mentioned earlier is what has been born of the suffering I've experienced here on Earth. I realized very young that I could internalize the pain and return violence for violence, cruelty for cruelty, hatred for hatred, or prejudice for prejudice. My parents believed in Christ but my father differed from my mother. He would rather offer a helping hand than a back hand. My mother loved my father for his ability to love in the face of adversity, but for herself she believed in giving as good as she got. Even though she loved him she saw the open hand as weakness and tried hard to beat this weakness out of me. For a time I lived as I was raised. Always on guard, always waiting for some perceived injustice so that I could reward it in kind. The drain on my soul was phenomenal and could not me maintained. The horrendous results of this lifestyle is that I have lost the function and use of my kidneys. I speak of this not for sympathy but as one would speak of a pitfall on a map. A danger to be recognized and avoided.
Those who choose to ignore this warning will undoubtedly meet their own precipice where they will realize that to continue as they have means death.
Those who choose to see the danger and adjust their course will be welcomed into the brotherhood. This brotherhood is an androgynous term and should not be seen as excluding of any one sex over another. Nor should it be seen as being exclusive of anyone at any time for any reason without exception.
The brotherhood simply put is us. All of us. All of us who have learned that we are a part of a much greater whole. Those of us who recognize that regardless of locale, race, color, country of origin, religious belief, sexual orientation, or any other method of division, we are one. One people; human. One planet; earth. One love; unity.
All are welcome because in this brotherhood it is your actions that determine your place. If you desire to be a brother all that is required is that you love. Whole heartedly, unashamedly, without reservation you love yourself and your brothers. Be they male, female, white, black, red, blue, green, Ukranian, Serbian, British, African, American, democrat, republican, green party, labor party, Jewish, Christian, Islamic, Hindi, etc, etc, etc.
Sooner of later we must come to a place where we stop destroying ourselves and our world. The only end that can come of fear, hatred, ignorance, greed, sloth, prejudice, and uncaring is death. The deaths of our children and grandchildren, the death of our planet, the deaths of our futures, the deaths of our dreams, wishes, and hopes.
Welcome. You come from all walks of life, all age groups, all races, all countries and you have accepted to be here, now. We no longer look to the future to give our lives purpose. We who live now will have incredible stories to tell our children and grandchildren of these days. How we were here on the ground floor helping. Helping who and what? Well now that depends on your particular calling. So as you go about your lives doing what you've been called to do, following your hearts, living and loving may you be at peace. Light and love from your brother.